I've got some 'splainin' to do.

Hello guys, I kind of owe you all an apology. I haven't posted for quite some time and I need to explain why. Last week the final court trial over my mums death took place, for 3 days my family and I had to sit in a room with the guy, see all the evidence, statements, and hear details which, to be honest, I wish I didn't hear. It left everything feeling pretty fresh and it knocked me back. Anyway, basically, the guy was found not guilty of death by careless driving. Which to me, doesn't make sense, he killed someone because he wasn't paying attention... surely that is "death by careless driving", no? I could go on and on about how the justice system and how its not fair but I would only make myself angry and upset. If he had been found guilty I still wouldn't feel any better, it wouldn't make the loss of my mum any less real. It wouldn't change a fucking thing. I just have to hope that he is human enough to understand what he did and hopefully he will never make a mistake like that again. An apology would have been nice, but I doubt we will ever get one. The papers have been around and it has been nice to get our story out, even if he wasn't found guilty, I think people should know. I just want to thank everyone who has helped me and my family through this last year. Friends or strangers. The kindness of people has made everything easier to bare. Thank you all.