21 years of being alive, almost.

So i turn 21 tomorrow. How does that feel? It feels okay i guess. Its funny, i remember being at school, when i was about 13, talking to my best friend Liam, making pacts that if we both weren't in relationships by now we would get together. Luckily I'm in a relationship and he's gay now. That would have been awkward. This last year feels like it has flown past. I'd like to say its because time flies when you re having fun. Sadly not though, as you may have seen in a previous post i lost my mum just before my 20th birthday. Since then the days have been blending into months and before i knew it I'm a year older. The surrealness of the situation has left me wondering where the time went, but thankful that I'm feeling better. It has been a year of growing up, hugely. The sad comes with the happy. I may have lost my mother but i have found a new sense of purpose and gratitude for those in my life. One thing that has really given me something to look forward to is that my friend Rachel fell pregnant around, well, 9 months ago actually. She is about to pop and i couldn't be more excited. I know it sounds stupid and I'm really not a spiritual person, but it feels like my mums life wasn't lost in vein. Someone else is coming, which is quite comforting. My holiday to Italy really helped me feel at peace also. I felt totally free and without worries. I didn't have to care what time it was or think about work. All i had to do was adventure the astoundingly beautiful city of Venice and enjoy every second of it. I didn't care about sticking to my diet, saving my money or keeping to the beaten track. I got lost and always found my way back. The warm city felt safe. The bridges and winding alleys felt like a home i had never been to before. That trip has really ignited a wanderlust in me. This year i have progressed so much in my illustrating and I'm so grateful for all the work i have got. I have had so many great opportunities and exciting offers. Where i would have been stuck in complacency and not been bothered before, I'm grabbing onto each opportunity now and seeing where it takes me. 21 is going to be good, its going to be a year that sees me create amazing things and grow as an artist. It will be a fun and i cant wait to share it with you all. Now here is a picture of me looking deep and contemplative. 

Birthday Wishlist.

 So my 21st is coming up. Ive made a little birthday wishlist. Im aware this is an incredibly dorky collection of items. But hey ho. Thats me. 

 

This little foxy bag, because i like anything thats shaped like an animal. 

How cute is this Totoro Ipad case? i dont actually have an iPad but y'know, a girl can hope.

Because why WOULDN'T you want your iPhone to look like BMO?!

Im a geek. I just love Totoro.

Again, im a loser, i know. I cant help but like it.

This one isn't really for me. My best friend is about to pop a little bun out of the oven. And i WILL dress her like R2D2. Weather she likes it or not. 

birthdays and cats

Hello all, How are we? 

I have done nothing today apart from clean the house, i woke up at 2pm. I hate waking up that late. I feel so guilty about wasting the day, my excuse is that if i had in fact woken up at 9am like i normally do i would have felt incredibly hungover, so the extra hours i got probably did me some good. Last night i went out with friends from my old job at Wagamama to celebrate one of the girls leaving. I haven't seen them all in so long i forgot how hard they like to party. Drinking lots of Vodka the Polish way and dancing like complete dick heads in a crappy little club. It was a brilliant night out. 

Anyway, I'm really writing to update you guys on what i have been up to, since i got back from Italy i have been busy catching up with friends. It was my bestest friend in the whole wide world (Liam)'s birthday on the 14th, so we all went up to Brighton for the day to visit Tania and sit by the sea. We had planned to see if we could get tattoos done that day but we left it a bit short notice. Me and Liam were going to get matching sugar skulls for our 21st birthdays. (my 21st is on the 30th, eep) We are still planning to get it done, we'll just have to book for it. Its been so long since i got a tattoo, I'm really starting to get the itch for it. Anywho, Brighton was great, I love it there, it is such a vibrant place, there is so much art everywhere and so many awesome little shops, lots of really cheap vintage stuff. It was such a warm day so we had a dip after visiting the pier. Oh and i found a cat. Here's some pictures. 

So speaking of my birthday, i have no idea what to do for it! I usually have a house party but most of my friends will be on holiday, sodding bastards. Anyway, what gift are you all getting me for it? Hmmm? HHMMMMM?!